Boy Kitty isn't doing so well. He's pretty unstable on his feet and sleeps most of the day. Lately it is hard for him to get in and out of the litter box and he's peeing outside the litter box mostly. He wasn't eating much (a few months ago I was going thru a can or two a day for his ravenous appetite) but now eats bit more but still not a lot. His bloodwork showed his BUN at 99... some other numbers increased but the vet said it wasn't time... yet. He called him a stage 3 out of 4, 4 being time to put him to sleep. Tonight I was giving him fluids and he purred but his breathing sounded a bit labored.

I wonder if I am keeping him alive because he has life left or because it is for me. Because it's hard to make that decision. Because everyday I want to see an improvement or at least hope for one. Have I done all I could? Am I being a bad mom? I have a sinking feeling the time is soon and I won't have my boy around anymore.